I always thought I knew where I stood. Always. My entire life felt like a shadow play, myself the blurred figure just behind the radiant glow of them. Not just anyone, but them. The golden child. The one who could do no wrong, whose every achievement was celebrated with a fervor that made my own feel like whispered apologies. It was subtle, usually. A casual remark, a lingering gaze, the way attention always drifted, inevitably, to them.
I tried so hard, for so long, to prove my worth. In school, in hobbies, in work. But it never felt enough. Never quite measured up. They had an effortless charm, an innate brilliance that I could only ever admire from a distance, feeling the familiar, tightening knot of envy deep in my gut. Why couldn’t I be like that? Why wasn’t I enough?
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