And like many boys who feel invisible at home, I learned how to feel powerful somewhere else.
Power at School Came from Fear
At school, power wasn’t about grades or sports. It was about who controlled the room.
People moved when I walked by. Teachers pretended not to see certain things. Laughing followed me—not because I was funny, but because laughing felt safer than silence.
And like every coward with power, I needed someone smaller to stand on.
That someone was Evan Brooks.
The Boy Everyone Looked Past
Evan sat in the back row. Always.
Wore uniforms that had clearly lived another life before him. Sleeves a bit too short. Shoes cleaned carefully, but never new.
He walked like he was apologizing for existing.
Every day, he carried his lunch in the same way: a thin brown paper bag, folded twice at the top, stained with oil marks from simple food. He held it like something fragile.
To me, he looked like an easy target.
My Favorite “Joke”
Recess became my stage.
“Let’s see what luxury meal the scholarship kid brought today!”
Laughter exploded.
I fed on it.
Evan never fought back. Never raised his voice. He just stood there, eyes wet, staring at the ground, waiting for it to end.
Sometimes it was cold rice.
Sometimes a bruised banana.
I’d toss it in the trash like it was contaminated.
Then I’d walk straight to the cafeteria and buy whatever I wanted—pizza, fries, burgers—without even checking the price.
I never called it cruelty.
The Tuesday Everything Changed
That Tuesday felt different before it even started.
The sky was gray. The air sharp and uncomfortable. The kind of cold that gets under your skin.
When I saw Evan, I noticed his bag immediately.
Smaller.
Lighter.
I smirked.
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